I still love you
I still love you, even if i am afraid to admit that it’s hard to commit to this insane shit. But i still love you.
Often i escape in my own little farytale world, hiding and imagine to feel the comfort of Togetherness, selflessness and companionship to just eventually fall back into this Deep dark black Wohle, where i feel nothing at all.
I want to achieve great things but i‘m too tired to bother.
I am terribly afraid of being alone but find my comfort in the cozyness of lonelyness.
Sometimes i feel my emotions in every Single Beat in my chest, to just end up the next Moment in enptieness.
On some days i feel like i can fight every Storm to just wish the Next Minute that i was not even born.
But there is a glimps of Hope in me, that it will get better one day, when hatred and hostility leaving their way and instead joy, peace and grace will take place.
And thats why i still love you, because even in the darkest Night of my soul, Deep within me i still feel this whole, filled with Beauty.
And thats the reason why i can’t let you Go,Not with my Heart Not with my mind Not with my Soul
Dear life, thats why i will always say yes i do,no matter what, because i still love you.
But faith is fading and Hope almost gone, because the amount of Beauty in my Heart is getting smaller each day when i see the dark clouds of suffer and sorrow are passing our way, more and more.
Animals get tortured, humans get slaughtered and our mother nature brutally killed.
Possibilities get infinit, decisions difficult and the lies of the mediaindustrie indiscriminete.
I am not going on that date with my collegue because on Tinder there could be 15 other guys who are better.
I am not having a chat with the waitrsss because it’s much faster to order online so i still got time to check my Instagram Status.
And hey, why should i make efforts when KI is the actual expert.
The Slow death of our Society, calls Technologie.
The new world brings us far away of everything whats suppose to be close to us, and close to all that, whats suppose to be far from us.
And instead of love, solidarity and harmony, hate, fear and burn outs are the new Reality.
But in spite of all that, i still love you.
Because in every eye out there, who have even seen the worst, is still love behind their hurt.
Cause thats the essence we are Born with, the essence we at made of is love, and nothing in this world can take that away, not even a Bit, not Even half.
But we are covered in pain and fear, haunted by Traumas of our past and trying to keep up with the pace of life wich is a way too fast.
And our light of love is like a tiny seed, burried in the dephts our Soul, just waiting to get out and be whole, again.
But how can we groom our seed and change the way we feel when we already busy trying to heal.
To let Go of the Trauma we need to wake up every Morning at 6 to do Yoga. And to heal our wounds of the past we have to attach a Meditation class.
And to keep up with life we need to be healthy, make good food and doing Sport Daily, next to our fulltime Job, the dog, husband and Baby, isn’t that Crazy?
We are trying so hard to be an individual Person, that we might forget our original version.
We desperetaly want to be someone in this world, that we might forget that we are already born enough of worth.
So why is it better to reach for the Stars when we already have all we need in our hearts.
Why focusing on the worries we can’t change instead of living each moment which can be very great.
And that‘s dear life is why i still love you.
Because some moments can be Full of glory and makes me forget all my worry.
Listening to the Sounds of nature when the sun is rising, keeps me away from endlessly fighting.
Looking into my happy dogs Face Impression, puts a golden coat onto my Depression.
And being in the ocean, standing on my Board and riding a Wave, let me forget all those Bad days.
And yes, those moments not kalways come around, but if they are, i embrace it and collect every bit of it in my Heart so when i feel Bad the Next time i am not falling apart.
Worries and Hate exist through a Lack of love, so lets not hate the haters even more but instead spread kindness, compassion and warmth.
We all want to love and be loved, like in those cheesy romantic Christmas Movies which are unreal as fuck but lets make them real so we don’t get stuck in a world Full of rules and mistrust.
Let‘s get back to what is really essential and that might be the Sense of belonging and our Social Connection
Let‘s be together in this bittersweet Symphonie of life, care for each other and Stick together.
Dear life i love you, and thats why i‘m not just sitting around and waiting for things to change.
I want to share the Inspiration of all those wonderful moments and
remind myself day by day of the Beauty the world still has to offer.
Let’s live this life in love and light and make the world a Bit better, together.